In a time where there are many social media influencers on the internet, pregnancy can look like a piece of cake. Or sometimes even the whole cake! However for my experience with pregnancy, the first two to three months, I had a crumb of the cake. I want to preface this post by saying I am completely and utterly grateful to be able to carry life and bring new life into the world. I know there are many woman who struggle and battle with conceiving, and my heart and prayers go out to each and every one of them.
This post is in no way complaining about my pregnancy, I am simply writing and sharing this for the fact that past me would have loved to find a post, video, or anything showing that I wasn’t completely alone in my difficult first few months.
I found out I was pregnant at the beginning of this year (2022) and I was so completely overjoyed and beyond excited. Being a mother is what I have wanted and prayed for my whole life. I was the kid who would always run to the baby doll isle at any store and just hope that I would be able to bring a new little “baby” home with me. So obviously finding out I was pregnant was one of the most exciting experiences for me.
I found out very early on, I was bout three weeks pregnant, so at first I was thinking and hoping that my pregnancy would be easy breezy. Then week five rolled around and I started to feel the nausea pretty intensely, I constantly felt like I needed to throw up and I didn’t want to eat or drink anything. I went about a week without throwing up but from the moment I finally did it became an every single day thing, and multiple times at that.
Along with the nausea, and throwing up I had a very bizarre symptom of pregnancy that I had never heard of anyone having. Every single thing that I ate or drank, besides water, tasted and smelled completely awful. It got to the point where my husband had to buy me a swimmers nose plug and I would just go around the house all day every day wearing it.
Now I knew that you could get food aversions during pregnancy but I had never heard of having aversions to everything. If I smelled or tasted any food I would immediately feel nauseous and sometimes throw up, and it was just a really hard experience. I got really weak and lost about 10 pounds, and got really close to just falling into my own little dark hole.
But remember there is always light, even in the darkest times. I know I would not have been able to get through it without God and my amazing supportive family and friends who would sit with me while I ate and would make sure I drank enough throughout the day.
And that was pretty much my life and routine until about my twelfth to thirteenth week of pregnancy. Instead of throwing up every day it began to slow down to every other day then every two days then three and then it just stopped.
I am now halfway through my pregnancy, twenty weeks (yay!), I’m feeling my son move and kick and it is all already so worth it just for him. And I would do it all over again just for him, I really do believe that God was with me throughout it all and still is. I started feeling him move pretty early on, earlier than most, and I truly believe that was Gods grace and love in my life to help me push through and keep going.
My smell and taste has slowly but surely started to level, and I can finally go to restaurants again without the fear of throwing up because of the smell. Its definitely still not normal but its enough to wear I don’t have to walk around with a swimmers plug all day and I can enjoy some foods again, which I am beyond grateful for!
If any of you are going through something similar or even something completely different, and you need someone to talk to I am always up for a talk or even just an ear to listen.