We usually want to make sense of things. To reason why something happened
the way it did.
Often there is no single explanation, but many possibilities.
We chose one that we most believe in, that makes sense to us.
The perspectives can be factual – this happened, so that happened
They can be scientific – natural law states when these conditions exist, this results
Or they can be esoteric. Beyond the realms of what we normally know and see.
The esoteric is the realm I sensed my answers would lie in.
I looked at my karmic patterns - maybe I deserved it.
I turned to the esoteric masters I have known and trusted -
Vedic astrology, Kabbalah, Black Magic, Channeling, Shamanism
I could not not find a consistent, convincing reason why it happened to me.
And then in a Shamanic Journeying, an answer came to me
– Cosmic Collision. It was just luck. It just happened.
And after it happened, the elements, trees, spirits, worked together
to breathe into me, the life I have now.
I had crossed over. They brought me back. I bow to them.
"It just happened" is what I have accepted.
My therapist recommended me a book 'When Bad Things Happen to Good People'
There I read this line "All we can do is try to rise beyond the question ‘why did it happen?’ and begin to ask the question ‘what do I do now that it has happened?’"
That's the only question that matters. Now.