Bozhidar Batsov

September 28, 2021

Lack of inspiration

Lately I've faced an interesting challenge - there's a long list of topics on which I want to write, but I couldn't actually start writing on any of them. I've been pondering privately whether I'm dealing with lack of inspiration or with a severe case of procrastination. Or perhaps some combination of both?

Truth be told I've struggled to focus on anything "productive" for the past couple of months, so I'm leaning towards "lack of inspiration". Experience has taught me that when you're really inspired to write, the writing happens almost by itself - you start without any preparation and planning, you write a novel-sized article in an hour, the first draft is pretty much the final version and the process is very rewarding for you. When you're not inspired the whole process is just mentally draining. And, of course, that's not something specific to writing.

On the bright side - when I lack inspiration to work on the things that I consider meaningful, I do get to do plenty of fun and somewhat useful things. Here are a couple of examples:

- suddenly I decided I need to change LastPass, the password manager I've used without serious issues for over a decade. Playing with 1Password and Bitwarden was a lot of fun. 
- similarly I decided I need to stop using Google Chrome and played with a ton of browsers (Edge, Brave, Vivaldi, etc), before settling on good old Firefox. I should have done this a long time ago!
- I've started to re-watch Daniel Craig's James Bond movies. Up next - "Skyfall". 
- I've started to study a bit of Spanish again. 
- I finally cleaned up my RSS subscriptions in Feedly. Pro-tip - delete any feed that generates more than 5-10 articles a month.
- I've started playing StarCraft II online (ranked, 1 vs 1). It's really depressing how bad I am!

And what about my missing inspiration? Frankly, I don't care much about it, as I'm reasonably sure I'll rediscover it when the time is right. For the time being I'm fine with simply enjoying the last few weeks of my sabbatical in the least productive ways possible.