On my own at the cottage the last few days, having a bit of crises of opportunities as I try and fill my day with activity and reflection.

Scared of being bored, but not getting bored.

Worried about continuing to belong (or mabye fitting in?) with local community, home community back in the city, multiple on-line communities.

Alone, but not alone.

Spending time worrying about how much time I have to be here in this place, to be engaged in my communities, to deliver on my purpose, to be active, to be alive.

Am I getting all that I "Should" be doing, done?

Trying to gain insight and clarity, while my mind is all over the place with stuff I "Should" be doing, or "Could" be doing, what "Would" others be doing. and what "Will" I do.

I think many suffer this or perhaps worse mask it with distraction, routine or living someone else's design.

The best I have come up with is that all I have for sure is right now and am I doing something that either contributes to my purpose, serves those I love or have a meaningful connection with, or makes me feel at peace.