I got laid off, which kinda sucks, but it has been one of the best things for me, so far. I knew from day one this was going to be the "perfect" challenge for me because it was going push me in ways I knew I was weak in, but what I did not expect was how it revealed weaknesses in other areas I did not consider prior to this. Which, looking back on that seems obvious. So that, I can do something about it.
I have lost north of 25 pounds now. I quit drinking alcohol and 100% do not miss it. I am pushing myself to not rectify all my feelings but try to make the choice to acknowledge and then move on, or generally trying to care less about things that do not matter to me. I have been getting out into my local community more in several ways. I regularly attend Church. I volunteer. I am part of the workout and leadership group F3 Nation and have met some outstanding men there. I am investing more in those close personal relationships I treasure, and I am investing a lot of time in being a better man, husband, and father.
Looking back on where I started and where I am now 7 months later I can say the biggest blessing of the experience is having the extra capacity, in addition to time, to explore these things and add to what I have been missing.
Not everyday is sunshine and rainbows, quite the opposite a lot of the time, but I am not going to quit. I do not know how this will end up for me and if what I want will happen. I do not know how long it will be before I get a full-time role, and I am not sure where I am meant to be going in life right now. Suffice to say, there are a lot of unknowns yet. I still need to be able to show up everyday regardless of my current circumstance. On those days that are really hard to do anything I have to choose grit over and over and really push myself to at least try to accomplish something that moves me to where I want to be. No matter how small it may be. David Goggins says "**Perform without purpose**." Which, really sums it up.
I owe it to myself and to my family to use this time to not just *survive* this obstacle, but to figure out how to embrace it and how to **thrive** in spite of it. I know that I am better for trying and working hard even if I do not know what it will bring.
I have lost north of 25 pounds now. I quit drinking alcohol and 100% do not miss it. I am pushing myself to not rectify all my feelings but try to make the choice to acknowledge and then move on, or generally trying to care less about things that do not matter to me. I have been getting out into my local community more in several ways. I regularly attend Church. I volunteer. I am part of the workout and leadership group F3 Nation and have met some outstanding men there. I am investing more in those close personal relationships I treasure, and I am investing a lot of time in being a better man, husband, and father.
Looking back on where I started and where I am now 7 months later I can say the biggest blessing of the experience is having the extra capacity, in addition to time, to explore these things and add to what I have been missing.
Not everyday is sunshine and rainbows, quite the opposite a lot of the time, but I am not going to quit. I do not know how this will end up for me and if what I want will happen. I do not know how long it will be before I get a full-time role, and I am not sure where I am meant to be going in life right now. Suffice to say, there are a lot of unknowns yet. I still need to be able to show up everyday regardless of my current circumstance. On those days that are really hard to do anything I have to choose grit over and over and really push myself to at least try to accomplish something that moves me to where I want to be. No matter how small it may be. David Goggins says "**Perform without purpose**." Which, really sums it up.
I owe it to myself and to my family to use this time to not just *survive* this obstacle, but to figure out how to embrace it and how to **thrive** in spite of it. I know that I am better for trying and working hard even if I do not know what it will bring.