If you have similar challenges like I do: struggle to sit in front a computer from time to time and work.

I have tried to analyze why
It's because I setup some expectations for myself that I have to do X to be able to showcase of how good I am. That is fundamentally wrong.

Eventually what I value the most is what impact I left for this world, what I did right is much more important of I did right. Using Amazonian words, working backwards from "do the good X" instead of "look good by doing X".

Once you realize it, it's so mind free and let you enjoy your work. I feel empowered to say no if that is not align with the goal, I feel empowered to disagree, pushback and say out loudly what I think.

The strategy will not necessarily make me a great employee or teammate, but over long term it will shape my value and help me to take risks to do good, and I deeply believe every company with a soul will love to have an employee who respect values.

Happy Friday.