I am glad that the fear is gone. It was back, just as strong and powerful as before. It paralyzed me and severely narrowed my view of the world. I saw danger everywhere and terrible things would happen to us. My thoughts were full of it.

The catastrophe happened far away, but exactly where we would pass. Just a shift in time. What if we had already been there at that time? I had the worst images in my head and no way of getting rid of them.

We won't be there for another two weeks. Will we really be there? I still don't know, but I believe in it more. More than in times of fear. Since it has subsided, my world view has also opened up. I am free again for life and for the moment.

I enjoy this the most when I'm hiking in the mountains. There, where I am furthest away from civilization, where I am thrown back on myself, where everything depends on me, every step and every movement. That is where I am most rewarded. And that's where the fear disappears, because nature shows me that I can do it. I can live and I can be happy.

Originally written in German. Translated with DeepL.com (free version)