Benitatxell (Alicante, España)
There are exactly three reasons why we leave the accommodation. When we go shopping, take out the garbage or go on a hike. I've forgotten one, the platform near the house. But I usually go there alone.
It's less than 50 meters away and I can look out over the open sea. There is nothing but the sea and the horizon. Between the two, there is a play of colors that enchants me. Every single evening.
When I look at the sea, it calms me. And if I do it long enough, for days or even weeks - not constantly, but again and again - then it's as if it sees me. It's as if it smoothes out all the pain inside me and waves of well-being flow through me. It is as if the sea reflects itself in me and heals me.
It asks nothing of me and expects nothing. It accepts me.
It is the necessary contrast to the human world. It agrees with my insatiable desire for security, which I don't see in people. I cannot see, not because I am blind, but because I have not learned to see enough.
I have never found the access to them that it takes to trust them completely. I always feel strange and uncomfortable among them. Never completely safe. And I never really feel seen.
Oh, I will miss the sea.
Originally written in German. Translated with DeepL.com (free version)
There are exactly three reasons why we leave the accommodation. When we go shopping, take out the garbage or go on a hike. I've forgotten one, the platform near the house. But I usually go there alone.
It's less than 50 meters away and I can look out over the open sea. There is nothing but the sea and the horizon. Between the two, there is a play of colors that enchants me. Every single evening.
When I look at the sea, it calms me. And if I do it long enough, for days or even weeks - not constantly, but again and again - then it's as if it sees me. It's as if it smoothes out all the pain inside me and waves of well-being flow through me. It is as if the sea reflects itself in me and heals me.
It asks nothing of me and expects nothing. It accepts me.
It is the necessary contrast to the human world. It agrees with my insatiable desire for security, which I don't see in people. I cannot see, not because I am blind, but because I have not learned to see enough.
I have never found the access to them that it takes to trust them completely. I always feel strange and uncomfortable among them. Never completely safe. And I never really feel seen.
Oh, I will miss the sea.
Originally written in German. Translated with DeepL.com (free version)