Manresa (Catalonia, España)

Something must have happened. A tectonic plate has shifted inside me, but it hasn't triggered a quake. It is calm. All I can feel is a deep sense of contentment. The past four weeks have been written inside me like a newly revised code that makes things run more smoothly and fluidly.

The meeting with new friends certainly has something to do with this. It was a wonderful end to a time that was not packed full of events, but a profound stay. I have been brought back to my center.

Like so many things in life, this moving in is not an act of pure joy, it was accompanied by pain and biting fear, especially in the last few days before departure. And then it was like after a storm, when the cloud cover breaks and bright, warm rays of sunshine pierce through it, heralding a new era.

This new time is now.

I didn't want to be in a city anymore. Not for so long. The lights. The noise. The anonymity. All things that bother me, that I could never get used to. And now I'm in a city and my body is vibrating with excitement. It's a positive, beautiful feeling that comes from a place full of uncertainty and doubt.

In the end, it's sunshine that dispels the darkness. That's a good state to be in.

Originally written in German. Translated with DeepL.com (free version)