Kernormand (Côtes-d'Armor, France)
Four young and playful goats, three chickens – one of them very adventurous –, two dear dogs and a shy cat. Trees and meadows and fields as far as the eye can see. Peace. Inner peace. That is now coming to an end. Although I have enjoyed my stay in this accommodation very much, I do look forward with a certain joy. No euphoria, but a small feeling of lightness, even though the future may lie behind a gray veil.
And then there is the darkness. The darkness does not disappear, no matter how far I travel and how much I undertake. Now it even grows stronger the closer we come to departure. I don't know how I can bring a lasting light into it so that it disappears forever. I have tried to descend deep into it like into a cave, to get to the bottom of it. This descent into the depths was always a dive into the past. Into the time when my self was shaped.
Sometimes I feel trapped somewhere in that past time, so that there is no present. And then I find myself on a hike lost in the thoughts of then, which prevent me from savoring the present moment with full intensity. I am physically present, but not actually there. If I linger in this state too long, then nothing remains of the hike. Within me there is then again more darkness than light.
For it is the hikes that bring a large part of the light. If not the largest part. Especially the hikes in nature, through a dense forest or along a rugged coast, always where we encounter no other human being and are only exposed to the world as it is, as there once was more of it. We find these places here in Brittany. That alone is the reason why we have come here so often and probably will come again. However, we rule out living here permanently.
We entered this adventure with a large portion of trust. But perhaps it was also recklessness. Back then it felt more like the former. Over time, however, the feeling shifted in the other direction, where it has now settled for quite a while. I want to feel this trust within me again when it comes to shaping our future. For trust is light, and light drives away the darkness. Well then, let us travel into the light.
Four young and playful goats, three chickens – one of them very adventurous –, two dear dogs and a shy cat. Trees and meadows and fields as far as the eye can see. Peace. Inner peace. That is now coming to an end. Although I have enjoyed my stay in this accommodation very much, I do look forward with a certain joy. No euphoria, but a small feeling of lightness, even though the future may lie behind a gray veil.
And then there is the darkness. The darkness does not disappear, no matter how far I travel and how much I undertake. Now it even grows stronger the closer we come to departure. I don't know how I can bring a lasting light into it so that it disappears forever. I have tried to descend deep into it like into a cave, to get to the bottom of it. This descent into the depths was always a dive into the past. Into the time when my self was shaped.
Sometimes I feel trapped somewhere in that past time, so that there is no present. And then I find myself on a hike lost in the thoughts of then, which prevent me from savoring the present moment with full intensity. I am physically present, but not actually there. If I linger in this state too long, then nothing remains of the hike. Within me there is then again more darkness than light.
For it is the hikes that bring a large part of the light. If not the largest part. Especially the hikes in nature, through a dense forest or along a rugged coast, always where we encounter no other human being and are only exposed to the world as it is, as there once was more of it. We find these places here in Brittany. That alone is the reason why we have come here so often and probably will come again. However, we rule out living here permanently.
We entered this adventure with a large portion of trust. But perhaps it was also recklessness. Back then it felt more like the former. Over time, however, the feeling shifted in the other direction, where it has now settled for quite a while. I want to feel this trust within me again when it comes to shaping our future. For trust is light, and light drives away the darkness. Well then, let us travel into the light.