Natalie Judith Moore

September 5, 2024

I'll finally admit it: I'm a nut. In a rut. I'm crazy.

I'm a spark. I'm the thorn in your side. If you had power over me, I irritated the hell out of you. 

Oh no, no, no, no. I do not think anyone needs to go through what I have went through to get to the other side. It didn't make it stronger. It made me more tired. More wise. More grateful for the ability to tell people what's up so they can take the shortcuts. 

I am a ceramic sculptor. I love clay. I love the cello, even though I don't yet know how to play. Just the long chord tone, the longest note held on the bow. 

More courage, it's coming. I'm coming to get this. I'm on my way. Soda Tooth, Camp Counselor, theatre sets and music videos, video games. Calvin, Hobbes. A whole new world to explore. I had to purge it first. These chaotic tendencies, these isolating soul sores. Pluto implodes. The home and the hearth is the place where I show my worth. It's my destiny to make a place on this planet when I've never felt at home. I am an Earth Angle, a Light-worker. Labels are not my thing. I've said it before, "I don't join clubs." Well, la de da. Here I am. I wouldn't be an official vegetarian after than one time in the 8th grade I felt ashamed for becoming a cheerleader the week after I made fun of the idea. I hated that shame so much I never again made a claim. It was worse to me to have an easily washable stain on my integrity, than to lose out on the community and comradery of groups of friends and "belonging".

We're going all the way. Going to the top. One stop, last stop, better get on bored or you'll be feeling delusional for the next 30. The next 144 minutes until the sun sets. Transportation and elevation. I'm going, they are known. The shift is in, halloweentown, portland! Alright October 1 Marisa, its graduation time. It's the new beginning. 

make me over
french god mother
fairy princess
new moon kisses

keys
keys
keys

piano keys bars black 
white
yin 
yang
left right out of sight 
blinding to the light

snakes and deceit
concrete, nothings promised
to stay still 
quick sand
feet falling 
hall passing
you might be surprised this family friend is linked to it all
rick rick hey rick
whats going on brother
lead me over 
over to the higher timeline
help me please
purge the sickness
sickness of the 3 dimnesional energetic bullshit 
im ready for it
lets do it

who else do i got
on the other side
whos heart is pure love
grandma, aunt carole
uncle bill, are you there?
ancestors unknown?
grandma faye,
granpa joe?
alton leon gatewood
moore
family help me if you can
i love you and i thank you
youve sent so many i thought it was mass psychosis
not real gnosis
how could it be
gnosis is only known through actual experiencial activities
but see, tricksters, fuck em. im not scared of them. 
even if they think they can get me, im protected, 
i have divine light energy.
i am full full full 
love within me
from above
please spirit help me to
ground it down 
connect to

pack up your life its time to go

get out to the trees so we can communicate with you feel the leaves feel the grass bow down on your knees
you have a divine purpose on the this purple planet green blue waters of it
knowledge known spread light wild fire thrugh the crystal blue
oceans
of lquidity
like money flowing bank accounts
cryto currentcy
this is worth more than your accounts could ever be
ive done it boys
ive won the lottery
how else can i say thank uyou to the man upstairs
to the one source love
the womb the chariot
the lion and the tamer 
the prophet and the gamer 
the one source love
bob marley called it love
love love
one love
was that theday?
i think it was
it was the day i broke my hear wide open so the cavity cavernous exposed to the air could finally be excavated treated and medicated with the healing of divine source angelic love
i busted open and poured through my tears the water of my soul fell onto the desert sands of my skin 
refreshing isnt strong enough to tell you how i felt when the water of jesus mary and the mother
one source soul brother 
laid down his hands each drop a full pan 
of water scooped up 
in the river
gold dust
shimmer in the light 
granite boulder
40, 50 feet high

the treasure isn't buried, it's in plain sight 
get on your knees and kneel to the water
the keys are the spark
the gold dust, yuba river, 
twilight.