I got HEY mail so that I can keep myself organized.
Now that I'm here I feel a resistance to feel accountable.
I want to be dependable, 'on top of my shit' and professional, and I am afraid.
Dude! I actually have to reply in a timely manner! I have to be focused and on task if I am to achieve my dreams!
Like oooh shit, there are no more excuses now.
If you ever felt this way, just know you're not the only one who's scared of being someone you currently are not.

To be overwhelmed and ask "what I got myself into" is always a reminder that I'm demanding more from myself than I ever have          - Nipsey Hussle

I'm so used to being a mess, but I don't want that to be attached to my identity anymore! Time to clean up!