Embarrassment. Shame. Guilt. Disbelief.
As I was driving home from Charlotte stuffing my face, I started wondering how much I currently weighed. I knew I was on a bender of eating since Xmas but I just hadn't weighed myself in so long.
Last year, when I was trying to lose weight in public, I failed plenty, but my failures were in the open and clear for everyone to see.
Perhaps that's why people build in the open or document their lives. Perhaps it's because it provides an accountability partner, whether fictitious or not. The reality is someone can find this blog and read it.
I made a comment in a previous post that if you don't hear from me, there's nothing good happening when it comes to health.
I had previous told myself that I would write more, chronicle my journey, and focus my energy. I can say, I have accomplished many things since then, like investing in real estate and starting section8secrets.net, but my main goal of controlling my eating... that has clearly not been my main goal or I have failed at it miserably.
Here we go 1 year later, substantially heavier, and nowhere closer to where I wanted to be.
So we begin again. 266.8. I'm sure the morning will be slightly better, but still. So shameful. I can never tell anyone to work through discomfort when I won't even suffer through some hunger pains.
A reminder of what the meltdown entails:
As I was driving home from Charlotte stuffing my face, I started wondering how much I currently weighed. I knew I was on a bender of eating since Xmas but I just hadn't weighed myself in so long.
Last year, when I was trying to lose weight in public, I failed plenty, but my failures were in the open and clear for everyone to see.
Perhaps that's why people build in the open or document their lives. Perhaps it's because it provides an accountability partner, whether fictitious or not. The reality is someone can find this blog and read it.
I made a comment in a previous post that if you don't hear from me, there's nothing good happening when it comes to health.
I had previous told myself that I would write more, chronicle my journey, and focus my energy. I can say, I have accomplished many things since then, like investing in real estate and starting section8secrets.net, but my main goal of controlling my eating... that has clearly not been my main goal or I have failed at it miserably.
Here we go 1 year later, substantially heavier, and nowhere closer to where I wanted to be.
So we begin again. 266.8. I'm sure the morning will be slightly better, but still. So shameful. I can never tell anyone to work through discomfort when I won't even suffer through some hunger pains.
A reminder of what the meltdown entails:
- +4 Eat <10 cups of food
- +1 all Vegetarian (plants not weird shit like Oreos)
- +1 all Vegan
- +1 No Sugar
- +1 30 Mins MIIT (Moderate Intense Interval Training)
- +1 10 min Stretch
- +1 20 min Sauna
If you score 10pts, you will lose almost 1 pound per day.