Here's what I know to be true...

Earlier this year I started a blog to document my fitness journey. I called it agingslowpanda.com and bought a Wix site and started my journey.

Within 14 days of starting that blog, my mom got diagnosed with cancer, I lost all motivation to focus on fitness, and the blog died. Quickly (Kind of like her. I know, terrible joke, but it's how I deal with death)

For the fitness journey,  I sporadically tried to keep it going, but it got repetitive, and because it was repetitive, it was also unfocused. 

I invented a program I knew would work but I couldn't stick with it. I called it the Meltdown and it looks like this:

Each action was given a point system and I would track the weight. The magic number was 7. If I scored 7 points or more for more than 7 days I always ended up lighter. 

Anyway, the point is during the process I learned that while I really enjoy working out, I didn't enjoy it enough. 

I like to tell my children that you are the things you do. So yes, I work out every day, and I sauna everyday, but I don't love that more than eating. Because eating is something I really do every day and I just can't seem to keep it clean for 7 days. And because of that, I haven't really lost much weight after 250lbs. 

With that realization, I knew the blog was always going to be a failing endeavor, but I still wanted to write. I still wanted to practice getting my thoughts flowing in a concise way. I also quickly saw I wanted to talk about more subjects.

I still want to talk about aging slowly, throwing kettlebells, hitting the sauna, working on businesses that might end up being total failures, and I kind of wanted to do it publicly, but quietly. Meaning, I didn't really want it on social media. I didn't want some algorithm showing a lot of people what I was working on. I wanted it to be more for myself and also for those that really cared. Not a passer by that just wants to shit on my content. Thanks a lot TikTik.

So here it is in all it's glory, the first post in the 2nd blog that I paid for (My poor wix money... GONE). 

Slow Panda just seems like such a good name for me. One, I've been compared to Pandas my whole life. Big, fat, Chinese, and a bit of a loner. Second, I live a slow pace. I'm not really trying to get anywhere. I'm very content with what I have, and I like trying to do different things that I enjoy. 

We'll see how this goes.