Gautam

May 25, 2021

The Decision

Everyone of us have our own set of interests, plans, desires that we’d want to pursue, but that’d surely involve negotiating with someone - your parents, spouse, partner, anybody. 

Negotiation is all that I can do, but what’s up with getting a whole hearted approval? Because, after repeated intervals of negotiation with your loved ones or thyself, I'm gonna receive a 
Fine, whatever. As you say!” 

but, but… that’s also accompanied by 

“I told you not to, but you wouldn’t listen, I knew this wouldn’t work out”! 

That’s where I’m afraid.
Maybe that’s why, sometimes I have to just believe in my gut and just say
“I’m taking this decision, it’s all on me, there’s 50% chance of me failing, 50% chance of I don’t know what’s gonna happen” 

I've done the research. I've accepted that it’s going to be tedious, it’s gonna take time to shape up, it’s gonna take my energy, my health,
I realise it’s bad for the relationship, I realise it’s bad for myself, maybe I should go back to doing what I was doing, aarrgh! it’s bad.. but just for now. Just for now. It’s going to be good. I’ll find my way, Won't I? I should.

*Silence* , *Breathe in, breathe out*
Phew!….
andddd jump decide! 

The decision! Your decision! 

Gautam P,
thegautam@hey.com
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UX Designer by the day,
Over-thinker by the night,
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