William Liao

April 9, 2021

I don't know, but I'm figuring it out

I don’t know really what I’m doing: 

I feel like I am figuring out my career.

I feel like I am figuring how to live a meaningful life. 

I feel like I am figuring out my relationships with other people. 

I am figuring out this daily practice that I’ve got going called the ‘Daily Spark’. 

You name it, I’m figuring it out. 

And that’s great because… 

It means that I can try things that I’ve never tried before and figure out if I like them or not. 

It means that it’s okay for me to stumble, fail, learn, and grow. 

It means that I don’t need to know it all — that I can safely set aside the tension and anxiety I might have about saying the right thing at the right time, and focus more on thinking freely and out loud. 

It means that the adventure is still on.

Not only do I not know what I’m doing, I would pity any version of me that thinks I’ve managed to figure everything out.

To realize that you don’t know exactly what you’re doing — that you are still figuring out all different parts of life — isn’t weakness, it’s a breath of fresh air. It’s realistic. It’s empowering. 

It means you’re human — woah!

And this applies to everyone: if you peel away enough layers, you will find that everyone — even self-proclaimed experts — are actually just at different stages of figuring life out. 

It’s everyone’s reality and the sooner you embrace it, the sooner you will discover the world of freedom, joy, openness, acceptance, shamelessness, and curiosity, and discovery that exist within it.