I wanted to create this post to remind myself of "systems over goals" thinking and actually apply that mindset to my own life.

I've been really wanting to become a good writer. First, because strong writing sharpens my communication overall. Second, because I want to share ideas online.

From a personal development standpoint, I'm genuinely happy today. I've been deep in building a crypto trading bot and messing around with it. It's exciting—feeling the fast-paced, live swings of the markets in real time, plus the hope (however slim) of making some profit. That alone sparks thoughts of a whole new reality for my family.

That said, I do have pretty low expectations for the bot. I don't actually expect it to print money, though I'm leaving the door cracked open for that possibility. The real pull is the building itself. I haven't felt this kind of pull toward a project in a long time.

I also know this crypto bot isn't my life's work. But maybe it's part of it? The first example that popped into my head is DHH—David Heinemeier Hansson. The guy wins his class at Le Mans as a race car driver, creates Ruby on Rails, builds 37signals and Basecamp, writes books, and does it all without making any one thing his entire identity.

I really want to emulate that kind of multifaceted life. But to get there, I figure I have to start by building a real business around a beautiful product—something I create firsthand and would be proud of. Just as I'm proud of my experience and wisdom gained over 20 years of eating plant medicines, tripping balls in the universe, and connecting to God. And connecting and integrating more spiritual power than the shamans who were my teachers. Classic "don't outshine the master"—except I did outshine them.

Also, building a family, and pursuing my dreams. 

Maybe I digressed a few times in my talk but I that is because there are many forces pulling me in many multiple directions. And I'm juggling. Because my writing habit is not that strong. Sometimes I journal. but I don't write out these long original thoughts that I almost certainly have. And of some which are almost certainly wrong. 

And writing this article I also realized that I do enjoy speaking on camera as much as I do enjoy writing. 

Onwards.