Alan Pafka

September 10, 2025

Spiritual and Energetic Mastery

I shared my journal, notes, and principles with Grok, from xAI. I asked it to summarize my skills and strengths. The feedback was that I've gained spiritual and energetic mastery. Grok even went as far as naming it a lifelong craft that is dedicated, purifying, and transformative. There's truth to that. It resonated quite strongly. But...
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September 6, 2025

Indecisiveness

I have this nagging feeling that eats me alive. It comes from having excitement over two different callings. I feel torn apart. Probably a skill issue. One of them is wanting to do healing work and plant medicines. I simply like working with cannabis and mushrooms, singing around the campfire and serving tobacco snuff. That work heals,...
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September 2, 2025

Cannabis and Mushroom Ceremonies

I would love to host my own cannabis and mushroom ceremonies one day where it's legal. Why? These plants have helped me so much! Going from suicidal to actually loving my own energy and life. Why my own plants? That's my energy. I love growing my own plants and sharing them. It's different than buying weed from a dealer. I put my own l...
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July 13, 2025

Becoming a Shaman or a Programmer

I've been really confused for a long time in my life. It mostly stems from trauma that's muddied my thinking and eroded my self-belief and trust in my own thoughts. I feel like I've reached the peak of it now. I'd say we must trust our intuition. It knows more than just calculated thought. Trust our intuition and take calculated risks ...
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