People say that they find peace while running, that running is their meditation. Well, good to them. I have not found that peace yet. So it is a constant struggle of inner voice yelling at me to stop and a more conscious of me to continue. I won the other guys most of the time. The battle is still every day.

I tried to think of embracing the sucks. That I own it. That it will become by asset. It will be my past--things I have done and owned.

Some suggests that we should think of the future. For example: complete a marathon in with your PR or for having a better health, better shape, etc. Whatever that is, the future looks promising. To me, that is a huge problem. Deep inside, I know it is a lie, a sweet lie. Usually, the future, whatever that is, when it comes, it does not look that much promising.

It is simply a trap to me. I stay in present to build things which will become my past--my assets.