masha

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October 28, 2022

polluted

can't live in a polluted world. noise, visual short-term
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October 16, 2022

…or whatever

Excess, middlemen, bureaucracy. See it, recognize it, question it, go against it, revoke it. What a waste of life, otherwise. Lack of taste brings the taste. Lack of meaningless words creates space for results. One’s true place one can feel if one allows to… It’s that simple, which makes it not so.
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September 23, 2022

What a paradox

partly by necessity, partly by choice devoid of taste, somehow richer with restraints, somehow freer i’m more aware and that what I’ll remember as I die
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August 11, 2022

in the now

There are two ways to live in the present. One is with disregard, ignorance, and fear. Going around in a rush, reaching for the short-term gain, to be felt here and now. With complete disdain for the process, let alone appreciation of the tiniest details. Another one is with respect. With focus. With realization that all you really hav...
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June 2, 2022

Talking is tiring, working is energizing

Our ability to talk, analyze, and plan can be a disadvantage. It’s too easy to take it too far. We get carried away in the wrong direction, trying to iron out the nitty-gritty details of hypothetical problems. Once we start working, we realize that we never even come close to those “problems”. The flow of work resolves them organically...
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May 8, 2022

mind the gap

There’s distance between stimulus and response. Often that distance is zero. Often I go straight to the response, without realizing what I am responding to, without realizing that I am, in fact, responding. It’s not a problem, as long as the response is the correct one. But what if it’s not? Then it’s time to pause. The pause is the di...
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April 29, 2022

The meaning of life

… is to do your best, whatever it is you’re doing, at the very moment you’re doing it. With focus and respect. With concentration, awareness, acknowledgement. With acceptance of who you’re, at that very moment. And no matter where you are, no matter the circumstances. That’s the simple part. The hard part is to figure out what is worth...
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April 24, 2022

Add vs remove

Sometimes we add things when we should remove them and remove things when we should add them. Example 1: Adding instead of removing We add more lanes to the roads, thinking it’ll solve the traffic issue. It does for a few weeks or maybe months. And then it goes back to the previous state. This phenomenon is known as induced demand or B...
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April 9, 2022

Berlin

If you have a week to go anywhere, it’s tempting to hit as many places as possible. Check, check, check. Off the bucket list. It looks great on paper. But what happens to and in your head? If you’re anything like me, you easily get overwhelmed. You need to spend at least 2 or 3 days in a new place to start making sense of things. And t...
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April 2, 2022

memory bits

Tickets, stickers, business cards, post cards, drawings, notes, photos, chocolate wrappers, coffee cup sleeves. Maybe they have sentimental value, maybe they have good design. Things worthy holding on to. Things that become even more meaningful with time. Keep them, organize them. The process of organizing itself is meditation, reflect...
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February 26, 2022

[2/2] I don’t like Instagram either

It’s like an obstacle course. You jump over ads in your feed. You jump over ads in your stories. You go search for a friend and the explore page attacks you with random stuff. You constantly, consciously tell yourself where to look, what to read, what to ignore. It's draining, mentally and physically. Seeing friends' pictures is heartw...
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February 26, 2022

[1/2] I don't like twitter

I made a twitter account a few months ago. I made it because I wanted to follow a few people I admire, mostly in the urban planning field. Big mistake. First, I expected that I would only see their posts in my 'feed'. How naïve. If you follow x, you may want to follow y... See this post because it's also about urban planning No, no, no...
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January 25, 2022

Night, avenue, lamp, apothecary

Night, avenue, lamp, apothecary Meaningless and obscure light. Live as little as a quarter of a century - All will remain. And no way out. Die - begin anew It will repeat, like in old times. Night, the glacial ripple of a canal, Apothecary, avenue, and light. — My translation of Aleksandr Blok’s poem
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January 25, 2022

Light, street, rubber, field

Light, wind, rubber, field. It's meaningless to be elsewhere. It's meaningless to leave this place, Because my happiness is here. Cold, metal, stairs, clock. It's pleasant to feel this pain, It's pleasant to know I can, Because without it I'm just nothing. Darkness, moon, fake grass, and music. You lead me where I can be. You lead me w...
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January 23, 2022

On being a newbie

At any point of your life, aim to be a beginner in something. The moment you get comfortable with it, try something else. Repeat. Aside from learning tons of new things, you’ll also learn patience. Each time you go through this cycle, you’ll have a clearer understanding that a beginner stage is just a stage. And if you could get throug...
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January 20, 2022

The difference

Between humbleness and humiliation. Being who you are, not underselling, not overselling. A good way to test is to write about yourself and then show it to a friend. They’ll tell you if you’re pushing too much or not enough.
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January 12, 2022

The system discourages revision

The systems we set discourage us from revising our work and improving. They also draw a hard line between creation and revision. Example 1 - high school writing You write a paper, hand it in, done. Maybe you revise it. (For extra credit). If you revise it, you probably already have that next assignment hanging over you. So revision bec...
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December 22, 2021

Set standards, stick to them

You are a professional. So act like one. Set standards for yourself, adhere to them. If you find yourself around people that accept subpar quality as a given, don’t fall into that trap. You have standards, that should be your guide. Don’t copy others when it compromises who you are. But copy those who inspire you. When in doubt, ask yo...
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December 19, 2021

An ideal Saturday morning

Emphasis on “an”. Wake up, go to the gym, walk to Seven Stars. Get a coffee, jot down some thoughts. Go back home, clean the apartment while listening to Tim Ferriss podcast. Cloudy, gloomy, quiet morning. Perfection.
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December 16, 2021

Foundations

Practice the foundations. Always. Not only when you're a beginner. At some point, foundations will become easy. That's great - it means you're getting stronger. Still, keep on polishing those foundations. Of course, practice more advanced stuff too but don't let go of the basics. Because there will be another point when foundations bec...
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December 6, 2021

Mondays

I love Mondays. A rainy Monday after a sun-filled weekend. It’s resetting. It makes it easier to concentrate. I love a good routine to go back to. It also makes it easier to concentrate. It opens up space for creativity. A work out in the morning, a coffee after, a walk, and then work, work, work. May everyone love their Mondays. 💙
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November 21, 2021

I love/hate restaurants

I hate restaurants It’s mostly the uncertainty. I like to know what’s going on on my plate, all the ingredients, weights, macros. I love food as is - no extra oils, sauces and other frippery.* At restaurants, you just don’t know. Sometimes you ask for the dressing on the side and they bring you EXTRA dressing on the side. Sometimes the...
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November 21, 2021

Feeling like a fraud, meeting your heroes

“If you like the painting, don’t get to know the painter.” ... I think it goes something like that. Sometimes it’s true. Sometimes the painter is a douchebag. Or not. Sometimes you stand next to them, but don’t want to say anything. It doesn’t feel like the right time. Or you don’t want to interrupt them. Let them live the normal life....
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November 20, 2021

On leaving

You are free to go whenever and wherever you are. Most of the time, people don't care if you leave. Some of the time, even if they do care, they'll forget about you in a couple of weeks. Life moves on, things keep on happening. When you leave, a place doesn't remain in a vacuum. The time is still ticking. It's very rare for your absenc...
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November 15, 2021

A combination of many, an escape from one

I had never been a competitive person. Not only I have zero desire to be the top in —whatever—, I also find competition to be distracting from one’s physical and mental self. Competing implies that you’re devoting as much self to it as possible. Everything you do is a supplement to that one goal. That’s just too much unnecessary pressu...
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November 11, 2021

Learning to pause

...is art to be practiced over and over again. Be conscious enough to tell that you’re banging your head against the monitor for nothing. A walk, a coffee will do much better. On a separate note, coffee shops right before closing time have a special kind of atmosphere.
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October 25, 2021

A plea for smaller cookies

... and also brownies, blondies, danishes, cake slices, etc, etc. There’s nothing more exciting that walking into a coffee shop and seeing a fully stacked pastry case. When it comes to picking something though, that’s when it gets difficult. Everything is just so BIG. I want a cookie, but like a small cookie, and this one is the size o...
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October 10, 2021

Get the balance right

Leaning into extremities is easy. Tipping over or not gaining enough momentum is easy. Finding balance is hard. Feeling balance is harder. Balancing without giving it much thought is the hardest. Learning to balance one aspect of your life doesn’t lead to balance in another aspect of your life. Being able to stand on your feet doesn’t ...
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October 4, 2021

Practicing non-attachment

Definition Practicing with non-attachment means always starting your practice with a clean slate. It means having no expectations of what you’re about to do based on what you have done in the past. While you could probably apply this idea to anything, I first started thinking about it in the context of yoga. In yoga, practicing with no...
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September 29, 2021

Film yourself

Whenever you train (whether it’s yoga, dance, pole, or even lifting), it’s good to occasionally film yourself. Here are a few reasons why. Reason 1: Tracking progress This is the most obvious one. Since progress is gradual, it’s often hard to spot. There’s no better way to see your progress than comparing two photos/videos several mont...
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